Daily Prompt – Unsafe Containers

Which emotion(s) — joy, envy, rage, pity, or something else — do you find to be the hardest to contain?

Rage. Pure seething white-hot table-flipping rage… Followed by jealousy.

I’m a Scorpio, so having a bit of a temper is kind of part of my nature, just like all other supposed traits of Scorpio. You know the ones… We’re ones who keep secrets, we’re very passionate, great in bed, get crazy jealous, will be loyal and trustworthy if it’s earned, we’re not the ones that you want to cross, and we know how to hold a grudge etc etc.

But the worst of them all is the rage. Granted, I’m my own worst enemy because I let everything get to me when I really shouldn’t and I can’t help it. I’ve tried to go all ‘Frozen’ on it and just let it go, but I can’t. I just can’t. Even the stupid insignificant little things jam their class in and take hold of my emotions and before I know it, I’m just ready to cut a bitch.

I think it’s also because I’ve lost all my patience, and so now instead of having a short fuse, I have no fuse. That probably doesn’t really help much either. I’ve tried things like relaxation and meditation, but I can’t seem to let myself give in to it – my brain remains too active and I can’t seem to just switch off. I think that only happens when I’m asleep.

I think my temper and my rage is perhaps the worst trait that I have, because it can sometimes even scare me on the odd occasion where I’m so full of rage I start shaking and can’t speak properly. Those are the moments where everything goes white and I end up with no recollection of what I did or said. Not that I’m actually a violent person at all, my bark is worse than my bite, but at least I know I need to lead how to chill the fuck out!

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