26 Aug – Feeling Content vs. Constant Achievement

Could you be content with having really good memories and the knowledge that you did something amazing, or do you constantly need to be achieving something new to be happy?

I feel a bit conflicted by this. I’m a bit on the fence about it.

I am quite content with having some amazing memories of things that I’ve achieved, and places I’ve been to, experiences I’ve had etc. They’re memories that will stay with me forever, and I’m okay with that.

On the other hand, there’s also a part of me that wants to try and do something better; try to achieve something better. It’s almost like a competitive streak, but competing with myself in terms of what I’ve already achieved, and what would it take to really take that achievement to the next level.

For example, I’m really quite happy with what I’ve achieved so far in terms of my blogging. I’ve written some pieces that have challenged and surprised me, creatively, and I’ve written some pretty lengthy posts, which I didn’t necessarily think I’d achieve. HOWEVER, the other part of me thinks that that achievement isn’t enough. The other part of me wants to be able to write more creative posts. Write a collection of short stories. Write a few more pieces over 20,000 words. Get something published. Get a handful of things published. Grow my reader base to 300 people. Increase my readership through social media. Publish a novel. Or two.

I’m constantly dealing with that type of inner conflict. I’ll be happy with something, but at the same time, I want to achieve more.

I don’t believe that it’s for the pursuit of happiness, moreso the sense of achievement. I don’t need to achieve any of that in order to maintain happiness – yes it would be great, but I’m already more than happy with what I’ve achieved so far.

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