Do you think you maintain a good balance of making yourself happy while making other people happy?
Absolutely not. If I’m truly honest about it all, I’m terrible at making myself happy – I’m generally putting others before myself.
My problem is that when I want to be, I’m quite giving in terms of putting others first, however it’s usually when such a need is warranted or required… or if I so happen to be feeling particularly generous.
As much as I want to be able to make myself happy, it would come at a significant cost, emotionally, and I think that the concept of it is far too daunting and terrifying for me to be able to handle at the current point in time. As much as I would love to find myself truly happy, it would require compromise and sacrifice, and I’m not quite ready for that just yet – and in turn, that itself makes me even sadder than I already am.
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