What do you hope brings you joy in the coming year?
In an ideal world, 2015 will bring a year of change. It will be a year of change that is both painful and pleasant, both of which, eventually bring joy.
2015 will be a year that finally sees me sorting my shit out, and doing something to at least get my life together and being more of a responsible adult. Even if that just means getting rid of my credit card debt – that alone would bring me a lot of joy. *lol*
2015 will also be the year that I endeavour to travel more to visit my family. After seeing them recently, I realised that I really should be doing this much more regularly.
2015 will also be the year that I truly tap into my creative voice and spend more time focusing on my creative writing, despite what others may think of it. Certain people in my life may not necessarily want to know anything about what I’m writing, and well, that’s a real shame, because as much as I don’t like to toot my own horn, I have an ability for creative writing. It’s nothing amazing right now, but it’s something that I’m passionate about, and it should at least be respected enough for the fact that it’s important to me.
But most of all, 2015 will be the year that I return to the one thing I truly miss the most – and that’s dancing. I cannot wait to be able to get my dance shoes on again and start tearing up those floorboards. It’s been an incredibly frustrating wait, and my return is starting to get closer and closer – I can almost taste it!
Is there something you wear that makes you feel happy?
There are, in fact, different clothes that make me feel happy, depending on the circumstances. I remember when I was younger and during the holidays we’d go to my father’s place on the northern NSW coast, we’d go swimming in the ocean, and it would be freezing, but when we’d return home and shower, I’d put on a jumper and track pants, despite it being 35C outside… which, also, drove my father ballistic because he simply couldn’t comprehend it.
Audrey Hepburn said, “If my world were to cave in tomorrow, I would look back on all the pleasures, excitements and worthwhilenesses I have been lucky enough to have had. Not the sadness, not my miscarriages or my father leaving home, but the joy of everything else. It will have been enough.” Do you think you would do the same, or do the sad times stand out in your mind?
It’s hard for me to sit here and reflect on the positive experiences I’ve had in my life, or even the past few years, because it’s always been overshadowed by the negative and sad times – I think because they’re the moments that generate a more significant emotional reaction; they’re the ones that are the hardest to deal with and the ones that take more of an emotional toll on us.