16 Dec – A Little More Light

Happy Chanukkah if you’re celebrating tonight. What do you do to fill the world with light?

I’ve never really considered that I would be the sort of person that would fill the world with light – my personality wouldn’t suggest there is much light to begin with, let alone share.

14 Aug – Mem’ries

Victor Hugo said: “Intelligence is the wife, imagination is the mistress, memory is the servant.” Do you feel that your memories work for you, or do you feel beholden to your memories?

 
I think I’d much rather focus of having imagination as a mistress… Although I’m not sure how my boyfriend would feel about that…

Daily Prompt: Something So Strong

Tell us the origin story of your best friend. How did you become friends? What is it that keeps your friendship rockin’ after all these years?

My best friend… hmmm… well this is kinda hard.

I feel as though I’m obligated to write about Hulk, because he’s my best friend, but I also feel somewhat obligated to even say that, simply because we’re in a relationship… and when you’re in a relationship with somebody, there’s an expectation for you to consider that person your best friend…

Hulk and I… well, Hulk and I really balance each other out. I think that even if we weren’t in a relationship, I would like to believe that we would still be great friends, simply because of that balance. When I’m in a rage, he calms me down, but when I’m calm, he can also put me in a rage – and vice versa. The qualities that he has, which balances me out, are also the same qualities that I have which balance him out.

We really do work quite well together when needbe, and we always bounce ideas off each other.

When I’m planning on writing something or saying something really quite blunt and scathing, he’s my filter. When he’s full of rage and ready to rip somebody’s head off, I’m the one that calms him down (literally, like The Hulk!). HULK SMASH!!

Even though after all this time, I sometimes feel like he really doesn’t get me the way some of my other friends do; and although we might not have the same kind of friendship / relationship like I do with some other people in my life, we’re just great together. He really does complete me, and I know that I complete him.

I think if we were to ever break up, it would be so epic and so crushing, not just for us, but for everybody that knows us. In saying that though, depending on the circumstances of a breakup, after enough time had passed, I like to think that we would still be able to remain friends. We both work in the same industry, so it’s inevitable that we would see each other quite regularly, and I personally like to think that we’d be able to at least be civil to each other, rather than hold onto grudges and hositility. But I don’t see that happening for a long, long time, so I don’t need to concern myself with that.

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Feb 24: Optimist or Pessimist

Do you think you are more of an optimist or a pessimist?

Pessimist. Well, now I prefer the term ‘realist’ instead… just because pessimist has such a negative association. Some people can be quite dismissive of anybody who identifies as a pessimist, as it can be quite draining to be around somebody who is always so negative.

But hey, that kinda seems a bit contradictive coming from somebody like YOU!!

Admittedly, yes. I do have a reputation for being negative. But at the same time I also have a reputation for being funny, sarcastic, entertaining, and for being a downright bitch. But over the last 12 months or so, I’ve examined my behaviours, and compared them to people who are truly negative 24/7 and I’m nothing like that. I’m practically a ray of sunshine compared to those people… but then again, people seem to have different views of what being negative really is.

For some people, simply questioning them or their decisions is viewed as being negative, and from that point, that’s the only way they will view you. Others however consider negativity being somebody who is all doom and gloom all the time – there is nothing good that will come from anything that they do. For me that’s somebody that I would consider being negative.

So when I admit that I’m a pessimist, and say that I’m a realist instead, i simply mean that I see things for what they are. The world isn’t all puppies and rainbows and sunshine – but that’s how some optimists view the world. And part of me admires that about those people. Those people who just see the positive in everything they experience in life. Recently I’ve made a friend who is like that. She sees the best in people and in situations, and she’s one of those people who has a light inside her that just shines everytime she opens her mouth to speak. It’s something that I truly admire about her, and something that actually makes me smile. I got to spend a weekend with her, and her positivity is just infectious… but in a good way! She’s one of those rare people that you cross paths with in life, who really makes an impact, and is somebody that you will remember for a very long time. I’m so glad to have met her.

So if you’re reading this, H, thankyou for being you.

Jan 20: Conformity

Do you still feel pressure of conform? If no, what age did it stop?

 

In certain aspects of my life, I still feel there is almost an obligation for me to conform – regardless of whether or not I want to for whatever reason. Certain situations in my life don’t allow me to question people and / or their actions which I find so unbelievably frustrating.

Even if it’s something that I don’t agree with, or don’t support, there is an expectation of me to be a team player, whereas I would be the one to point out all the faults and reasons not to support it.

But if I do that, then I’m not seen as a team player, instead, I’m viewed as being too negative. I view it as being logical.

Rather than work out the answers to issues as we go along, why not sit down and brainstorm all the possible variables for a situation, and then work out what the solutions for those variables will be. I’m the sort of person that asks the questions that others either don’t want to ask, or simply don’t consider. That’s how my brain works. You tell me you want to begin some kind of venture, and I’ll immediately think of at least a dozen different questions that I know you haven’t thought of, or can’t answer.

The bit that really drives me up the wall, is that I will at least voice my concerns with whoever is in charge, which is usually completely disregarded, then later down the track something will happen that they didn’t anticipate (and something that I voiced a concern over) and then everything becomes frantic whilst they scramble to find a solution.

Meanwhile, I completely walk away from the situation washing my hands of it because I tried to bring it to their attentions, and they ignored me. It’s just that it happens more than I would like it to – you’d think that by now, surely, they’d actually value my input and listen to what I have to say, because I’m sure they don’t find any pleasure in seeing me sitting there saying I TOLD YOU SO… yet, they continue to let these situations happen.

 

My input means nothing, so I don’t get involved. But if I don’t get involved, I’m viewed as not being a team player.

I just can’t deal with these basic bitches.

The cherry on top of it all, is that these people are earning a fuckload more money than I am, and yet ignore what I have to say, even when I’m right.

So yes, as much as it frustrates me, and as much as it makes me start flipping’ tables in my mind, I really don’t have any choice but to just shut and be a team player – it’s my job, and that’s what I’m there getting paid to do, even though I might be surrounded by idiots.

As for the rest of my life, no, I’m such a non-conformist. I think I was the most when I was in high school because it’s all about trying to fit in and being part of a little group of friends, or a clique, but even then, it drove me crazy. I’m too independent to be conforming to what other people expect or demand – sometimes I go to the extreme of just being so incredibly stubborn simply to make a point or stand my ground, even if I’m completely aware that I really don’t need to be doing so.

*sigh* I’m starting to sound like a bit of a complicated individual. *lol*