Daily Prompt – Can’t Get it Out of My Head

Have you ever become obsessed with something? Tell us about something that captivates your attention like nothing else.

I have somewhat of an addictive personality. It doesn’t take much for me to become focused on something , and want to give it my complete undivided attention. I think that the two worst offenders here are tv and video games.

Let’s start with TV…

So I find that once I watch a new tv show, I’ll be able to ascertain whether I like it enough or not from just one episode. If it doesn’t pique my interest enough within the first half of the episode, then I’m sorry, I’m out. However, if I can get hooked on it after the first ten mins… Then sign me up for the whole season immediately.

I’m that type of person who will sit down and watch an entire season of a show in one afternoon. Give me a couch and my onesie and a giant bottle of water, constant cups of tea and biscuits, and I’ll smash out an entire season in a day. Episodes back-to-back and get so completely engrossed by it, I’ll completely ignore the outside world.

I have also been known, during holidays or long weekends, to go a couple of days without showering because I’m so fixated on what I’m watching. It’s gross, but it has happened.

The other offender here are video games. Admittedly, I’m completely obsessed with the entire LEGO franchise of games. If it comes out on PS3, then I need to own it. No questions. I can’t quite explain what it is about these games, but once I pick up the controller, if I’m left on my own, I’ll spend 15hrs playing that without a break and will do so without any reservations whatsoever. Yesterday I bought the LEGO: The Hobbit video game. The week before it was The LEGO Movie game. Then I bought it on 3DS as well, simply because it’s a whole completely different game to the PS3 version.

Clearly, I have a problem.

Just as I was about to publish this post, I realised that I had one smaller, last-minute addition. Fashion Shows.

Now before you all start babbling on about ‘oohhh how TYPICAL… the gays and their fashion…’ firstly, shut the fuck up; and secondly, what’s wrong with it? I don’t actually know what it is, but I am fascinated and slightly obsessed with fashion shows. Granted, the best bits are when the models fall down (it just reiterates my statement to all women – if you can’t walk in those heels, then you shouldn’t be wearing them!!) and if you’re not sure what I’m talking about, watch this:

I can’t quite put my finger on why I’m so drawn to a fashion show. I just love watching them. And I think that for label clothing stores, they should always be playing their fashion shows in the window. On a recent visit to a shopping centre, I passed a store and their window display was a 5-screen x 5-screen video display showing some of their fashion shows. It stopped me in my tracks, and I stood there, fixated on the footage. It was hypnotic.

I should probably also admit that I subscribe on iTunes to a couple of fashion video podcasts. Although they don’t show you the entire show, they at least show you almost every show, from every label, from every Fashion Week around the globe… New York, Paris, Milan etc. Constant fashion love. However, I fail to watch them all when they become available, and instead find myself wasting hours at a time slumped over my MacBook watching the likes of Dior, YSL, D&G, Chanel etc.

Perhaps I should seek some professional help? *lol*

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Jan 23: Temper Under Control

Do you think it’s possible to control your temper when facing enormous pressure?

This is something that I regularly struggle with. I find that I do go through periods where I am under a lot of pressure, whether it’s work related or pressure I put on myself for whatever reason, and I find that when I am feeling stressed out like that, then I more than often just want to be left alone.

It usually gets to a point where I will snap at anybody for even talking to me, because I’m so heavily focused on what I’m doing at that time. The worst part is when I do actually reach that point, and somebody does cross the line (you know, that line that I only I know exists, and they don’t, essentially meaning their stepping into a lions den without realising it… yeah, that line) I shoot my mouth off… and I shoot to kill.

I cannot deny that I have quite a potty mouth on me, some people find it quite entertaining, some don’t, but when I shoot my mouth off when I am angry… it’s like going down swinging. I will use my words to completely tear somebody apart, and most of the time, I just say it to be a nasty malicious bitch. When I find myself at that point where I can’t even think clearly because I’m so full of rage, my mind shuts off, and my mouth takes over. This is usually why most of the time, when I’m involved in some kind of argument or disagreement, I can’t really remember anything that I say.

I know I say things that are nasty. I know that I say things that are hurtful. I usually just do so as a warning to others… it’s sort of like my way of saying ‘don’t think about even LOOKING at me’, but the thing with that is that when I shoot my mouth off in one of those moments, I really don’t necessarily mean anything that actually comes out of my mouth (because, like I said, I usually just say shit in the heat of the moment), but although I don’t think anything of it, others end up getting quite upset or offended.

That tends to make these situations worse, because I think that they’re being too sensitive, and that makes me look like even more of a bitch.

*sigh*

Evidently, I have a problem.