So, over the past couple of days, I’ve been too caught up dealing with getting ready for Christmas, and all the food, shopping, present-wrapping, guilt and sadness that comes with it (the latter, I’ll be getting to in a separate post soon), but this happened…
… And I really don’t know what to say. I’m incredibly humbled that so many of you are actually interested in reading some of the shit that I write on here – but maybe that says more about you, than it does me hehehe, but if that’s the case, then maybe we should be friends, because you’re here for a reason, aren’t you??
Anyways, to the 200+ people who have subscribed — Thankyou.
Oh, and have a Merry Christmas, unless you’re more concerned with being politically correct and not discriminating or promoting any specific religion, in which case, Merry GO FUCK YOURSELF – STOP BEING SO STUPID! Just enjoy the break and be with your family and loved ones.
Is there a person you should’ve thanked, but never had the chance? Is there someone who helped you along the way without even realizing it? Here’s your chance to express your belated;gratitude.
I have a lot of people that I should thank for a plethora of reasons, but perhaps not for the reasons you may be expecting.
To my first Dance teachers, thank you all so much for acknowledging my talent and my future potential, but thank you also for not pushing me the way I should have been pushed and challenging me the way you should have. Whilst I thought that I was excelling, I realise that I wad in an environment that was incredibly limited and I should have had the courage to move to a capital city much sooner that I did in order to truly experience a real Dance culture and discover the challenges and improvements I’d been seeking for so many years.
Thankyou to all those cunts throughout my childhood who bullied me, and made my life a living hell and a constant struggle. Those of you who pushed me you far resulting in depression and suicidal tendencies. Thankyou for forcing me to go through some of the most horrible and painful years of my life, day after day, showing me that I truly am quite resilient and can overcome any obstacle that life throws at me. Because of you, I’ve become the strong independent person I am today.
Thankyou to the people in my day to day life who continue to disappoint and let me down, and show their unreliability. You are the reason I generally dislike people, and the reason I chose to keep everybody at an arm’s length. You’ve taught me that the only person I can and should only ever count on is myself, because if something doesn’t work out, I only have myself to blame. It’s solidified my independence and self reliance, and I’m comfortable with that.
Since November 2013 I have now passed 365 posts… that’s a year’s worth of posts in 6 months. I can’t believe that it’s already happened. I remember getting excited when I first got to 50 posts, and then 100, and I remember writing something like 20+ posts in the space of a few days and got to 300 and thought it was absolute MADNESS. I actually didn’t realise that I’d written this many, as the last dozen or so I’d just written on my phone whilst in transit to and from work, and I hadn’t noticed. YAY!!
This makes me happy. This tells me that I have a lot to say, and that I have a lot more to say, and I’m glad that I get to share it now with everybody, so THANKYOU to everybody who has been following my randomness and my ranting and my handful of creative pieces I’ve written… it really means a lot to me that anybody is even taking the time to read it in the first place…
So, I’m not one for checking site stats or anything like that, and well, I completely ignore all the emails that I get from WordPress (they just go automatically into their own folder in my inbox), but I did notice something… a little notification that popped up on my screen congratulating me on getting 100 followers!! Naturally, I thought it was spam, and promptly ignored it.
In your imaginary award acceptance speech (yes, we know you have one), who’s the very last — and most important — person you thank?
‘…and last, but certainly not least, I need to thank my mum. The person who has always been there for me. The person who has always supported me. The person who has always been there when I just need to vent, or when I need advice, or sometimes when I just needed a cuddle because I was feeling like shit. She’s always there when I just need to talk, or when I need to bounce ideas off somebody. She’s the one who let’s me know when I’m getting a bit ridiculous, or when I need a bit of a reality check. She has always encouraged my uniqueness, my creativity, and my talent, and I simply wouldn’t be the person that I am today if it weren’t for having her in my life, giving me advise and helping me keep my life on track – even when, at times, it’s felt like it was completely falling apart. Mum, words don’t even do justice as to how I feel about you, and how much love I have for you. You mean the world to me, and I’d be completely lost without you. I love you so much. Thankyou!’