Apr 8 – Keep It Private

Are there some scandals that you wish you didn’t know about?

I think that when it comes to the private lives of other people – regardless of who they are, their status, their fame etc, it should be kept private. I really don’t like the way the media will take something personal and painful between two people, and then parade it around all over the news, on front covers of papers and magazines, and all over the internet as some kind of story.

I think that’s just plain mean.

Have you ever gone through something such a relationship breakup / divorce? Or perhaps something quite painful and personal? Yes? Now imagine if somebody took all those painful moments and details, and broadcast it to every single person that you knew. Your friends, your family, your coworkers etc. How horrible would that make you feel?? One of the things that I absolutely cannot stand is when people start airing other people’s dirty laundry – it’s just so… vindictive. However, god help anybody who dares try and air any of my dirty laundry, I will rip them apart piece by piece.

Apart from that, there are a lot of scandals that I just don’t care about. None of them interest me, nor do they affect me in any way, shape or form, so why should I concern myself with other people’s problems? That sounds somewhat selfish, but it’s true. If it has absolutely nothing to do with me, why would I want to invest my time into reading about it, or watching reports about it on the news.

I just don’t care. Granted, if it was something that was going to affect people’s health (like the Horsemeat scandal) then that’s a different story. I used to shop at Aldi, so in that aspect, I’m involved as a consumer.

Jan 23: Temper Under Control

Do you think it’s possible to control your temper when facing enormous pressure?

This is something that I regularly struggle with. I find that I do go through periods where I am under a lot of pressure, whether it’s work related or pressure I put on myself for whatever reason, and I find that when I am feeling stressed out like that, then I more than often just want to be left alone.

It usually gets to a point where I will snap at anybody for even talking to me, because I’m so heavily focused on what I’m doing at that time. The worst part is when I do actually reach that point, and somebody does cross the line (you know, that line that I only I know exists, and they don’t, essentially meaning their stepping into a lions den without realising it… yeah, that line) I shoot my mouth off… and I shoot to kill.

I cannot deny that I have quite a potty mouth on me, some people find it quite entertaining, some don’t, but when I shoot my mouth off when I am angry… it’s like going down swinging. I will use my words to completely tear somebody apart, and most of the time, I just say it to be a nasty malicious bitch. When I find myself at that point where I can’t even think clearly because I’m so full of rage, my mind shuts off, and my mouth takes over. This is usually why most of the time, when I’m involved in some kind of argument or disagreement, I can’t really remember anything that I say.

I know I say things that are nasty. I know that I say things that are hurtful. I usually just do so as a warning to others… it’s sort of like my way of saying ‘don’t think about even LOOKING at me’, but the thing with that is that when I shoot my mouth off in one of those moments, I really don’t necessarily mean anything that actually comes out of my mouth (because, like I said, I usually just say shit in the heat of the moment), but although I don’t think anything of it, others end up getting quite upset or offended.

That tends to make these situations worse, because I think that they’re being too sensitive, and that makes me look like even more of a bitch.

*sigh*

Evidently, I have a problem.